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feelin pretty good RN guys

Tue, Mar. 4th, 2014, 09:52 pm
fuck it.

I don't understand. Okay. I really wish I did, but I don't. I was worried that my being emotionally compromised would sort of impair any level of understanding I had, and that on returning to a vaguely stable state, things would make sense. Things still don't make sense.

It's like, even if I sat down and tried to make sense of it with you, I worry you'd insist that I was being massively inappropriate.

Like, when your best friend in the world tells you that they want to see you, that they love you, that they couldn't imagine being with anyone else - then a week later says that you're in a polyamorous relationship now - then apologizes for doing all that, and for cheating on you, and then later on says you were never even going out in the first place and that you're a fedora for even suggesting anything otherwise.

In my worst, and most anxious moments, I did things I shouldn't have, sure. After three months of what felt like just, emotional abuse, I snapped, and now I feel I've got to make amends for that. And I'm like, what, why.

I mean heck. I'm still heartbroken, and I really, honest to god wish I wasn't, because it's the worst. I've not felt this bad about anyone, but like. I don't get it.

Is there some spec of wisdom I'm missing out on? Did I miss a lecture in school where they explain how to deal with situations like this?

Common sense dictates I sort of just say 'fuck it', my counsellor says I should just say 'fuck it', and yet, still a bit depressed, and still as heartbroken as before, all I can try and do is make friends. And yet I still worry that all this is going to do is make things worse.

I wish I understood, okay.

Sat, Apr. 28th, 2012, 11:14 am
Some good things

I just got a new job. Here is a list of some good things.

Some good games to play on the PSP (which I also recently got)

Holy Invasion of Privacy, Badman! & What Did I Do To Deserve This, My Lord!? 2
An (evil) ant farm simulator.
Play the tutorial of the second one then play the first one, then play the second one. I say this because the tutorial in the first one doesn't go far enough to explain the complicated game mechanics and the game mechanics get even more complicated in the second game.
Anyway, after working out how to play it, the games are incredibly satisfying, very in depth and pretty funny.
The vibe is very reminiscent of Dungeon Keeper if it were made by Suda 51.

Me & My Katamari
This is the first proper Katamari game I've ever played.
Sorry I took this long.

Half Minute Hero
One of the best RPGs I've ever played. Ridiculously easy, yet thoroughly satisfying.

Sat, Jun. 25th, 2011, 04:14 am
Link's Awakening

Really sad times, completed Link's Awakening for the nth time.

Link's Awakening is probably one of my biggest memories from childhood - it took a group of us in Primary School about 2 years to collectively complete it. It's made even more maudlin to think that one of said group died awhile back last year - we used to be really close, but we fell apart and didn't ever reconcile. Woe.
t took me about 2 months of on/off playing to kill that final boss. By the end of it, I was as giddy as sin. I think it was the first game I'd dedicated a tonne of time to that I'd actually managed to complete (Mario Land 2 came soon after). Aah, happy, carefree, innocent times.

But wow, what a sad story. Awakening presents Link as such a tragic figure - the only person who ever expressed a romantic interest in him (EXCLUSING PRINCESS ZORA IN OOT CHRIST THAT WAS JUST A BIT WEIRD) is dreamed up by a giant fish. She seems entirely aware that she's been dreamed up, and has a desire to live on after the dream is over... AS A SEAGULL.
And that scene where she and Link duet together when Link finds the ocarina (in a musical sequence that pushes the limits of the gb sound chip to create a really beautiful piece of music), and she asks him never to forget the song. Or her... Knowing what happens at the end of the game, it breaks my little heart.

Fri, Apr. 22nd, 2011, 01:38 pm
Under the circumstances, I've been shockingly nice.

A review of Portal 2:
Portal 2 has pretty much made me forget that any other game ever existed.
The Co-op is the greatest thing ever - and while the plot of the co-op isn't as strong, the script is a helluva lot more sharp.
More test chambers would be lovely, and I'll gladly pay through the nose for them.

Some more thoughts below the cut. Spoilerific.

The Fact Sphere is a good sphere, with many friends.Collapse )

Sat, Apr. 16th, 2011, 09:26 pm
Some game based thoughts

Now is really not the time to be getting into games. If you're me. I'm running in local elections and it's all set to kick off in a weeks time. But instead of working on my campaign (which is, in all honestly, almost entirely unwinnable), I've been having a crack at the stack of games that I haven't started yet.

Ever since getting full time employment, I have to admit that my attitude towards gaming has really changed - gone are the days where I'd invest hours into my FFXII characters just so I could max out their license grids- and my reaction to completing Black Ops in less than 6 hours being "Man, that was good. I'm just glad I managed to hack through it in a weekend" was met with derision from a few of my friends. I was just really grateful that the gameplay mechanics didn't get repetitive and the story was nicely concise.

Anyway... here's a few games that have been on my radar recently.
Epic games based cutCollapse )

Mon, Mar. 7th, 2011, 05:13 pm


This makes me so happy I could cry (but probably won't, in order to keep my manly integrity intact).

Sat, Mar. 5th, 2011, 01:55 am
50p says.

I'm prepared to bet that this version of Star Control 2 for Android will hate my phone.


Thu, Feb. 17th, 2011, 11:26 am
Really? FMV? REALLY? What is this Nineteen ninety fucking eight?

I know that it's some kind of illegal to get excited about a game just from an FMV sequence, but I just did. And I'm not sorry.
The Skinny: Dead Island is a Dead Rising-alike, featuring 4 player co-op, improvised weaponry aplenty, and island to wander around on (or "open world" as they call it these days), a story, AND HORDES OF GREAT RUDDY ZOMBIES.

More here.

Also, I have a new phone, and am currently installing archaic playstation rpgs on it.

Mon, Nov. 1st, 2010, 10:11 pm
Net Work Error

I'm only about 20 minutes into Deadly Premonition, and I already fucking hate it. But I also love it too.

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